......sometimes lead us to discoveries. AS I went through my usual walk yesterday, I ventured into some roads that I have not taken before. At first, I was afraid to enter that area, lest some CHIKAN [ A LASCIVIOUS MAN] are lurking in there. I turned towards a wooded area and what did I find? It was a JINJA [TEMPLE] hidden behind those thick foliage. It was indeed a HAVEN for lost souls, wandering hearts,or troubled ones .....It was one place away from it all: >no noise, only the twitting of small birds as they fly from one branch to another; >no other building except a small Temple surrounded by tall trees which smells of fresh red pines; >no one around, except my own self; It made me sit and contemplate on things that have been bothering me for some time. THE PLACE speaks of peace. I can't help but feel that nature is indeed great.The autumn colors were profuse and the grounds were abuzz with leaves of all hues: brown, gold, yellow, red....How I wish I had my digi-came with me.... I sat for a while thinking of nothing.....savoring the beauty of the place.There is nothing like this in the Land of my Birth....So simple, yet so beautiful! Since no one was around.....I tried to shout and unload my burden.....I shouted out loud....at the top of my lungs and gave in to that pent-up emotion..... I used to do this near the sea....at the beach.....as I dug my bare feet into the sand....But since sea breeze would be chilly,I have ceased going to there for the moment. I cried...[again!]...."Cry-Baby!"...Tatay used to say... I don't know...Maybe.... When I have no one else to turn to,and can't verbalize my sentiments, I always end up with tears....even in the bed, as I linger on thoughts that would have been. I guess all girls do... or do they? I have no idea....really. Am I rambling? I have no reasons for that, do I? No, not that I have things to complain about..... Life is beautiful as it is....I guess it's the sadness of living 'alone' that makes me mushy...[Lolo doesn't seem to bother...He's OK by himself...] I guess I don't make sense....anyway... .I hope to go back to that place again sometime in the future.....when all the leaves have fallen and the trees are bare.... and next Spring as well....when the SAKURA comes a-blooming..... QUIET PLACE. CONTEMPLATION. LONELY HEART. LONGING THOUGHTS.
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